let's go back.

i am strong willed.

and minded.

yet weak kneed.

and shaky.

at a loss; 

of stability. 

of momentum.  

amazing how quickly i can become derailed. 

frazzled. 

unhooked. 

amazing how quickly things stop shaking around so much when i am still;

not thinking about who and what i cant control,

but thinking about what is passing in front of my eyes.

its not about falling into or out of place, 

or placing into our taking out of.

things, people, life: all in a constant state of flux, 

of 'becoming' not 'being';

of 'becoming', yet 'present'

of this moment,

NOW.

[I will be less obtuse later, promise. I realize I've been quite mum lately: And surely those who know me well know that, at times, I do shut down [and out] until I have steady footing. I know I am not alone in this approach to life. Of late, due to the rain or otherwise, my footing has felt less than steady; But the sun is shining this afternoon, mud's drying out, and all is well. Corner turned.]