gotta rest.

god keeps trying to teach me patience. this fracture is taking its sweet but shitty time to heal. the pelvis did protest last week during and after each run and by saturday i was 'aware' of its unhappiness for the remainder of the weekend. i sent derick an email, basically telling him that i was starting to question whether i should be running... as much as i wanted to keep running and as painful, mentally, as it was thinking about having to stop running again, i kept thinking about stress fractures forming in barely healed bone. during my run saturday i kept thinking 'should i stop?' and that thought alone was a red flag: a big, billboard sized one. of course derick felt similarly and agreed we should cut it out. so far, he and i, 'coach' and 'athlete' are a good fit. i am so thankful i decided to work with source-e. i have my moments of frustration [with my body] but i see the light at the end of the tunnel, and with derick's help, the bigger picture is starting to develop. right now, i need to reset my body to its zero point and i accept this. in fact, i welcome it. why? because i need to. not only do i have certain issues that make it such that my bones arent so strong but i was making it harder for my body to heal. how so? i was riding at an intensity level or for unnecessarily long durations of time for the last 10 weeks. by doing this, i wasnt allowing my body to rest. ever. obviously, with little to no rest, there was little, if any recovery. and with no recovery, there were no reserves to heal injured tissues. i was constantly tapping out my body. would i change how the last 10 weeks have played out? nope: no shoulda coulda wouldas. no regrets. no looking back, not now and not ever. 

but now im gonna rest because when i do my bones are gonna heal. as fellow source-e'r, the playa says, "rest is righteous"....and indeed, it is.

someone told me...

they love this picture...
so im sharing it.

starting over...again.

yesterday was the first day of the new year, my new year: it began a year of training, with the main goal to remain INJURY FREE for 12 consecutive months.

to remain so, i have entrusted derick williamson at source endurance .

the first workout was a very short 90 minute ride...i say 'very short' because to me, being used to riding 4 hours on a saturday, a 90 minute saturday ride IS short. 

i am anxious about the lack of activity already but know that i need to be patient. and if i have learned anything over the past 10 weeks, that is it.