gotta rest.

god keeps trying to teach me patience. this fracture is taking its sweet but shitty time to heal. the pelvis did protest last week during and after each run and by saturday i was 'aware' of its unhappiness for the remainder of the weekend. i sent derick an email, basically telling him that i was starting to question whether i should be running... as much as i wanted to keep running and as painful, mentally, as it was thinking about having to stop running again, i kept thinking about stress fractures forming in barely healed bone. during my run saturday i kept thinking 'should i stop?' and that thought alone was a red flag: a big, billboard sized one. of course derick felt similarly and agreed we should cut it out. so far, he and i, 'coach' and 'athlete' are a good fit. i am so thankful i decided to work with source-e. i have my moments of frustration [with my body] but i see the light at the end of the tunnel, and with derick's help, the bigger picture is starting to develop. right now, i need to reset my body to its zero point and i accept this. in fact, i welcome it. why? because i need to. not only do i have certain issues that make it such that my bones arent so strong but i was making it harder for my body to heal. how so? i was riding at an intensity level or for unnecessarily long durations of time for the last 10 weeks. by doing this, i wasnt allowing my body to rest. ever. obviously, with little to no rest, there was little, if any recovery. and with no recovery, there were no reserves to heal injured tissues. i was constantly tapping out my body. would i change how the last 10 weeks have played out? nope: no shoulda coulda wouldas. no regrets. no looking back, not now and not ever. 

but now im gonna rest because when i do my bones are gonna heal. as fellow source-e'r, the playa says, "rest is righteous"....and indeed, it is.