more later

i hate architecture.
it hit me like a ton of bricks.
yesterday, during a review [perhaps, one might say, not the best time to have the revelation].
what am i doing?
wasting time, this studio is merely a formality, the "capstone" to my days as an architecture student.
it makes me sick to think about the wasted time, so i shake the thoughts out of my head, "i wont regret doing this" i tell myself.

but really, i do wonder if this is why i have been feeling so crappy lately.
exhausted, all the time, no matter how "easy" i take it, no matter how well i eat, no matter how much i sleep.
headaches, nausea, body aches. neaver ceasing.
starting to worry, am i ok?